Hello once again,
so where to begin... and what to do?
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In life we all have to make decisions, choices and paths that lead to our future. One thing is for certain, all paths lead forward, just maybe not quite the direction one would like.

Lets begin this complicated tale, lol
so back in probably the end of May, Amanda started to like me, though, as you all know I liked Colleen, now this story isn't about Colleen, lol, its about Amanda and Kristina. So Amanda secretly liked me, because she didn't want Kristina to know, because her and Kristina are best friends, and Amanda would never want to hurt Kristina so. Well I have like kristina firstmost and like forever ago, but a few months Kristina stopped talking to me because her friend Jill said I was being shady behind Kristina's back. Well Amanda jumped at that and I started to like Amanda too. well finally Kristina started talking to me again, and its been sparce, our convos that is. anyways, Amanda, Kristina, and I all were talking last night, and we even got into a threeway chatroom with eachother, and like we all decided to get an apartment together and just all be like together.. haha... But I know that those kinds of things never really work out, especially in the end.. I mean, which one would I marry? etc, you know, plus it wouldnt be right either lol no matter how fun it could be.. Two girls sharing one guy.. that leads to jealousy, and etc.
Well I did hang out with Kristina today, it was pretty fun. we hugged, kissed and whatnot. but Kristina doesn't trully want to get close because she is affraid of hurting me, she doesn't fall for people. Kristina lives here in AZ, and Amanda lives in North Carolina =/
Both Kristina and Amanda are amazing. They have a lot in common, but at the same time, they are very different too.
Kristina is up for playing video games with me and/or watching me, and is sweet.
Amanda is fun to talk to and sweet too, though she hardly does what I ask her to =/
They both make me smile and cheerful
thought right now.. I feel a lil blah, or just. emptiness.. I dont know

I kind of feel like Im stuck in the middle here, and blah. =/ any comments? thoughts, the works? lol

We all make decisions..
(I just don't want to hurt anyone, and I don't want to get hurt by anyone - I care and love them both)

Just wanted to say that I think times like this you just need to settle down and look (like you just did) at your options. I wouldn't get too far into a two girl one guy relationship in one apartment for the fact that it does cause lots of problems. I'm not going to tell you WHAT to do, I'm going to tell you what I would probably do.

Seeing as how Amanda lives in NC, and Kristina lives in AZ then there really isn't a good way of putting this. I'm guessing since you three were going to share an apartment, Amanda planned on moving to AZ? - If so, that might not be a good idea if she's coming just to stay with the two of you. Just talk to each of the girls one at a time and figure out who you should be with. Be gentle about it though, and let each of them know that you care for the both of them. Just let it be known.

Anyways, I've kind of been in this situation before, in a way, but it was a bit different. I ended up finding the guy I am super happy with and he helps me do what I gotta do in my life and I help him get through his just the same. :) I really hope all works out for you Josh because you've always been a good friend to me, and a little more at once but things happen for a reason, as I do believe.

Hearts to you, and will love to hear the ending on this situation once you realize what you are going to do about it.

(Sorry if I'm all confusing you and stuff but this pregnancy has me thinking in ways I never thought I could think! LOL)

Hopefully you'll make the right decision.

Holly & Mason

yea, its complicated. but I don't know. I guess I should just stand back. I just feel like theres this void, emptiness? and I think I should just stay single for a long while, and not get involved with anyone, it's just too complicated

Joshy... I would agree with you maybe you should now rush into things. Maybe being single for awhile will help. I've been single for almost 6 months and I'm doing things for me now again. Dating screws up your priorities. Enjoy your life... but dont become a spinster! ;) Love you joshy take it one day at a time.

Just let love hit you! because, when it hits you it will hit you hard and it will feel so great.

you're a great guy.
happy
sweet
cute
funny
etc.
what could a girl NOT love about you?